A Beautiful Mess

There's been a ghastly accident on the highway just near my house.

Fri, 24 May 2013 16:31:39 -0400

All I hear right now are helicopters and helicopters, going back and forth. Lord Jesus, Helicopters mean people are alive right?

I saw my first dead body being wheeled out of a hotel while I was in the city on a gurney, covered by a white sheet. It was utterly surreal.

Cheese and crackers, life and death and life. So much of it all the time. If you had to fathom it all at all times, could you hold it together?

richkidsofinstagram: Summering 🏇🍸 by reidbaldock

Fri, 24 May 2013 15:56:32 -0400

richkidsofinstagram:

Summering 🏇🍸 by reidbaldock

Day Trip into the city. (Never thought I'd be saying that.)

Fri, 24 May 2013 15:48:04 -0400

Somehow wildly successful.

I came away with three more dresses than I left with.

A quick tour for Alexia around Times Square.

And it only started to rain once we got on the train back home.

Also, my tummy is very full and happy with food from a Halal cart. Yum.

Somehow damp curling my hair last night and waking up with it still damp managed to get me the softest, most amazing smelling curls.

Future Husband, you missin’ out.

I feel like it’s shower and naptime, don’t you?

laughingsquid: Epcot’s Spaceship Earth Turned Into Animated...

Fri, 24 May 2013 15:43:45 -0400

laughingsquid:

Epcot’s Spaceship Earth Turned Into Animated Mike Wazowski to Promote ‘Monsters University’

I can't believe I lost a bunch of weight using the TUMBLR DIET!!! Are u using this too? Tumblr won't let me post links but check it out at TwitterHealthDiet[d0t]com

Fri, 24 May 2013 15:43:11 -0400

How is this the Tumblr diet if you’ve just called it TWITTER HEALTH DIET.

WHAT ARE YOU DOING.

ARE YOU TRYING TO TRICK ME.

commercialdaze: Kmart - Big Gas Savings 1. 2. 3. 4. 10/10....

Fri, 24 May 2013 02:31:22 -0400

commercialdaze:

Kmart - Big Gas Savings

1.

2.

3.

4. 10/10. It just keeps getting better and better.

kmart refuses to stop and i, for one, am not going to tell them to.

coochiejuice: And y’all worried bout Amanda Bynes ^best.

Fri, 24 May 2013 02:03:46 -0400

coochiejuice:

And y’all worried bout Amanda Bynes

^best.

The Front Bottoms “Mountain” Video Project

Fri, 24 May 2013 01:38:50 -0400

The Front Bottoms “Mountain” Video Project

that one time, OF MANY, that jeshhh read me like a book

Thu, 23 May 2013 23:34:01 -0400

that one time, OF MANY, that jeshhh read me like a book

no the metal band

Thu, 23 May 2013 23:20:27 -0400

no the metal band

musiqchild007: iwillbringpraiseiwillrejoice: yeahmicah: WHAT...

Thu, 23 May 2013 23:18:39 -0400

musiqchild007:

iwillbringpraiseiwillrejoice:

yeahmicah:

WHAT DID I SAY? WHAT DID I FREAKING SAY? I TOLD YOU! I TOLD YOU ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

WHAT NOW, Y’ALL CAN SUCK IT!!!

To everyone who said I pronounced it wrong…I expect handwritten apologies.

Same. Thank you.

I wish I could be in a Facebook relationship with Kix.

Thu, 23 May 2013 22:54:56 -0400

I wish I could be in a Facebook relationship with Kix.

Criminal Minds writers are positively beastly, by the way. Cruel. I am reading three books. only,...

Thu, 23 May 2013 17:08:49 -0400

Criminal Minds writers are positively beastly, by the way. Cruel.

I am reading three books. only, one of them doesn’t quite make sense to me. I cared more about the opener’s characters than the current characters.

I wish my house, on a day like today, was missing walls so that the breeze could come all the way through.

I’ve made mashed potatoes, done the dishes, read a bit, watched a bit of stuff…. I think a nap is in order and then a workout.

I really want to go to the beach. Simply get out of the house. I may take a walk later.

So I don’t know if I feel better, but a text I got this morning and finally finishing eat pray...

Thu, 23 May 2013 16:49:38 -0400

So I don’t know if I feel better, but a text I got this morning and finally finishing eat pray love felt incredible.

Today was a rainy warm day, my favourite kind of summer day, but…. I don’t think I slept enough. I’ll remedy that.

so eat pray love is like a million hours long i still haven’t finished it but ifeel much...

Thu, 23 May 2013 02:13:00 -0400

so eat pray love is like a million hours long

i still haven’t finished it but ifeel much better

massive case of fernweh, but i stopped telling God all the things I hate and started telling him all the things i love and i think i can go to sleep with the sincere hope and expectation of a better day

in the morning, i will shower, make myself a good breakfast, and just be happy i’m alive

okay? okay.

good night

can someone give m ea feel good movie to watch before i curl up on the floor and cry myself to sleep...

Wed, 22 May 2013 23:35:51 -0400

can someone give m ea feel good movie to watch before i curl up on the floor and cry myself to sleep please?

being in my house with my mother is vexing. beyond vexing. i absolutely loathe summers spent here....

Wed, 22 May 2013 23:12:00 -0400

being in my house with my mother is vexing. beyond vexing. i absolutely loathe summers spent here. i bear the brunt of my mother’s frustration and am not allowed to be tired, ill-tempered, or just plain fed up. any sort of expression of emotion besides complete servitude and happiness gets my mother fired up in arms. and it’s been a thousand times worse lately because my mother has a habit of repeating the same tasks and to-do lists over and over and i simply cannot bear to hear them. i just cannot. either you tell me something once or you don’t tell me. telling me three, four, five times in a row frustrates me and only further goads you into thinking i’m “lazy” and “ungrateful” irregardless of the fact that the span of time between one ask and the next was approx. 5 minutes.

and i always get into this bad headspace within days of being trapped at my mom’s. there’s always an idiotic argument, always a retort too sharp or too slow or not fast enough. always something the matter and i just simply can’t. bear. up.

why are you still asleep

you need to exercise

why aren’t you eating

did you apply like i told you for the job i know you don’t want

you shouldn’t be eating that

you should be thanking me for what i do for you

why are you tired it’s not like you do anything

you should walk to all the local businesses and ask them for a job

did you eat yet

you need to buy ________ and get a job

i do all the work you should be asking me for things you can do for me

you’re sore because you didn’t exercise

why aren’t you asleep

i’m trying to remain upbeat and buoyant, especially for the sake of having someone else in my house and trying to make it the best for them… but with the mom thing dragging me down into oblivion, it’s hard to even remember who to be happy for and why. and i’d like to pretend that it will stop once i get a job around here, but that’s just a joke. it’ll be another 9 - 5 with me being tired all the time, too busy to do any of the extra things she wants and more nagging to follow with even less patience to deal with it.

i’m so done in this moment. just tired, fed up, anxious, and done.

both-seeker-and-sought: My love language is food. Goodnight.

Wed, 22 May 2013 22:42:31 -0400

both-seeker-and-sought:

My love language is food.

Goodnight.

what if days only got better than the day before and there was no backtrack i have no idea what to...

Wed, 22 May 2013 22:36:48 -0400

what if days only got better than the day before and there was no backtrack

i have no idea what to do when a male finds me attractive in a romantic sense. usually i just start being mean so they stop

if there was a way for this to happen and for me to not die, i would exist on a diet of water, lemons, bread, cheese, and chocolate chip cookies

it’s too cold in the basement. too in between downstairs. and too hot upstairs. and i’m too tired to move.

i’m trying to find a job but i really just want to spend every day in my house, make money, and occasionally have people say hello to me and then go away

i also just want to sleep forever and read the bible in the sunlight

that’s another thing. reading the bible is a food/snacks and sunlight/daylight kinda deal. i can’t wake up and read the bible first thing and i definitely can’t be trusted to read it before falling asleep

there’s a reason i like food so much, obviously

my mother just cracked herself up in the kitchen. and she came to tell me the story— and she’s still dying…. and i don’t find the story that funny but she’s literally gone and made herself weak

i just want pretty people to smile at me and think i’m nice. that’s all i want in life

also an animal to cuddle

night thoughts

just tommy. are you serious. he was a good character comeon stupid people.

Wed, 22 May 2013 22:12:43 -0400

just tommy. are you serious. he was a good character comeon stupid people.